Are you gaslighting yourself on your Twin Flame journey?

I recently discovered a pattern within myself which significantly impacted my healing process in a way I never thought about.

Twin Flame Gaslighting

One of the challenges Laurentiu and I moved through recently in our Union was building up resentment for one another. There were things either I or him were not happy about in our relationship. From bigger things to smaller things. While having upsets come up between us is not something new or wrong, we felt we couldn’t quite figure out what was happening as to why we arrived in places where resentment was building up. We healed with the Mirror Exercise and with the help of our Ascension Coach Daniel for quite some time until I had a breakthrough.

I realized that I was gaslighting myself when something felt bad, especially when it came to my twin flame or people in my life I cared about a lot. Something on the lines of “Oh, it’s ok, he’s my Twin Flame and he’s going to improve as we heal.” I would tell myself, meanwhile not doing the healing there on what was upsetting me. I have noticed that I used to do this in many ways as I had the realization about this pattern. Another example where I noticed this was in my finances where I would have a bad feeling and then numb myself to it by telling myself “Oh, I am sure I can make more money and overcome this situation.” I would tell myself, meanwhile ignoring my feeling and growing frustrated when things wouldn’t change.

Healing Gaslighting Myself

As I noticed this pattern, I made new choices to be present with my feelings fully and completely and heal my upsets as they come up. I also realized that my upsets were - well simply upsets. It wasn’t even that the outside circumstances were that dire, I was just having some feelings to move through. I noticed as I allowed myself to move through my feelings as they come that they are usually just feelings and nothing seriously bad is ever happening.

Now, a next thing that came up as I moved through this pattern is being hard on myself for having the pattern to begin with. In the recent Twin Flame Ascension School Class that I watched, a student was doing exactly what I was doing to myself too: beating themselves up for doing a mistake in their Twin Flame journey. In the class Jeff invited the student to let themselves off the hook and accept themselves unconditionally as they are and to accept that making mistakes is part of the journey. You cannot truly grow without making mistakes so mistakes are natural in your Ascension journey with your Twin Flame.

Unconditional Love and Acceptance for Where You Are in Your Journey Right Now

As I was healing through all this, I allowed myself to also see the progress I have made in doing this work. While these things have stemmed from my childhood and would seem like big big things to move through, because I was persistent with doing the Mirror Exercise and finding what was not in alignment with love within myself, the realization came peacefully to me, like: “Oh, that’s what’s been happening here… well I don’t choose that anymore”.

I am truly grateful for the Teaching of Union and Twin Flame Ascension School, because without it I could have never been able to move through this healing such ease and grace. The support in this community is vital for my Harmonious Twin Flame Union.